Just typing for the heck of it. Havnt been here at LJ in a while. I actually dont check here anymore in complete honosty. Im just not interested in reading peopls shit and never getting the favor returned to me. I techinically dont have any people on here whom I can call friends, so yeah. Dont give a rats ass. Just typing for the heck of it. Because I like to sit and type and waste time with my life on the computer like the rest of the people in america like to do. Which is why w all our people are so damned fuckin fat. But thats okay. Im not complaining. They can be fat. Im okay witht hat.

Anyway, just thought I should typr some random crap, cuz ya know. I can.

Waiting for tomorrow to come. When tomorrow comes I shall wait for the day after that to come. And after that I shall wait again.

Okay, so, I can still draw. Ive lately been doing quite alot of good artworks. Just last night I inked in a very good drawing and submitted one to DA. Im happy with them all. I just hope ill have the time to color them all in. Publix has been working me some crazy hours. I know people complain about not getting enough hours, but damn, I want less :/ Which is why im changing my availability hours. 1pm-9pm. Im tired of staying in that store for so damn long. I get 7.50 an hour so thats alot compared to the minimum wage of others, so even a few hours will still get me alot of dinero. Today they got me working 9 hours straight :/ 3pm-12am. YIKES. Its obvious they want to teach me something bout closing the store. Yesterday I did alot of leveling which wasnt too bad compared to cashiering because I got to do it with some other co-workers. They are nice people, definately. My paycheck should be some where around 200 bucks im guessing. It better be, thats for sure. I dont mind getting just 100 a week (we get paid once a week, wee) because that should be enough to support myself with food and school supplies, which is what I need the money for. My dad got me a credit card to use for gas so I never have to worry about it anymore X_x Thank fucking God. Gas is KILLER. its like 2.50 something a gal for regular. Jeez. Anyway, school starts wendsday, but I wont be able to go untill I get this STUPID financial aid crap dealt with. I have to get my mom to co-sign my CELP load but I dont know how to go about doing it. Even the first time I did it I got super confused, I had to call the company and everything. Im just tired of trying so im going to go over there and MAKE them help me. Im sick of the financial aid office not being helpful. Every where else in the school they are helpful except financial aid. And if they dont help me im going to give them a shit load of yelling. Most definately. Lets see, what else can I type into this one paragraph entry? Um. Im aggrivated? Well, that is all. Well, all that I am willing to put into a public entry :P

I got my period today D': Now I have no energy to do the shit im sopposed to do. Like SCHOOL WORK. I have an essay to type up, but damn am I lazy right now. Ill try and finish it soon. Than I have to finish my project for drawing and perspective. After that ill work on typography crap and finally image manipulation.

I feel bad bout missing two classes yesterday, but im glad I also had a good time while skipping as well :) No real regrets here ^^;

I want cookies.

OH YAH. Weighed myself yesterday (and today). I weigh 136ish (today it was 135 and yesterday 136). I used to weigh 147, and I did for a good while too. Its the first time my weight has actually dropped. That means im losing fat. But still, I want muscle. When/if I get it, im going to gain weight, so unfortunately, I cant look at the weight :P Just the mirror. Im glad though. It was very good news.

Lifes a trip :)

Too bad migraines are coming along for the ride :(

First I was excersizing 3-4 times a week, now im planning on going on the detox diet....strictly....for a week! Detox diet is pretty strict in it self. Basically, its like going on an all natural diet while eating no sugars, fatty foods, n the such. It also is going to involve the lemonade diet, which involved drinking I think it was 2 glasses of lemonade a day. Its veeerrry beneficial, if anyone is interested they should research it. But anyway, im planning on detoxifing my entire body. I think I should go longer for a week, but im not sure. Ive read that results can be seen in as little as 3 days and than you can stop for 2 weeks and start again. Im just going to have to make this a habit like I did excersizing, which is going strong still. Sometimes, I think that I want to quit excerszing because im not seeing any results (I need to get a scale), but I have noticed that my endurance/strength has increased slightly (1 push up to 10!). Anyway, Im super hyped about starting this, and I plan on doing so tomorrow. Im going to go to walmart and buy lotsa healthy foods. Not sure if walmart is the best choice, but ill see. Im also going to buy some cleansers to help the process some. Gee, cant wait to see what my stool is going to look like after that >_>; *gulps* But anyway, im excited about it. I hope it helps with some certain problems im having, which im not mentioning since this journal is public. Migraines is definately one of them (have heard that eating healthier helps migraines LOTS). And so is losing weight/getting fit.

I also have plans on getting a tattoo in the future. Its a tough decision though with the religion im studying into, but personally, I still feel strong about it. Its not just something about getting a tattoo just for the heck of it, or just to show off. Its more like 'wow, I have to have that on my body'. "That" would include wings :) On my shoulder blades. With stars on the spine. Some one on DA has posted photos of hers, and I have always wanted something similar since than. I dont plan on copying her, so im working on a design, but if anything, im still going to notify her that I have used her design as a means of getting ideas. I just wonder how much the cost of something like that would be :P I would need a job I think ^^; I also need to consider in finding a place to have it done. I wonder if Miami Ink is any good? Plus, theyre famous. I dunno. Maybe.

Well, thats all I want to type for now. Especially on a public journal entry. I dont want to say much when its public since I dont want just anyone reading my personal things.

copying and pasting so I dont lose it. Basically, it explains everything about my migraines. They can be caused by -anything-.

When it comes to exercise and migraines, you've got two sides of a coin, says Lawrence Newman, MD, director of the Headache Institute at St. Luke's-Roosevelt Hospital Center in New York. Exercise can be an effective preventive measure against migraines in some people, he says, but in others, it can actually cause them. "We think migraine sufferers have a heightened neurological system," says Newman.

"They're more apt to develop a migraine when anything is out of the ordinary -- when they get up too early, go to bed too late, skip meals, etc." For that reason, Newman suggests that people prone to migraines establish not only a schedule of eating and sleeping regularly, but also of exercising on a regular basis.

"I just dont want to" describes the way ive been feeling all damn week.

I absolutely hate feeling this way, but the only way to fix it is to actually do something...but I just dont want to do anything! Ive been lazy lazy lazy and I hate it. Its just depressing. I missed one week worth of chiropractic, I missed my eye doctors apointment, I almost wasnt going to go out with my friend yesterday, the only reason I did was because she begged me, and today, im skipping the meeting at the kingdomhall. And all becuase I just dont want to move. I want to go buy something, but I dont want to get up and go to the store and actually buy it cuz im too lazy. I havnt played TP in 3 days cuz im so lazy, and I havnt turned on my Wii in 2.

I was just talking on the phone to my Bible study teacher and she told me it probably has to do with the fact that I havnt been doing anything. Schools out, and ive got nothing to do because all of friends have part time jobs and are always working (and im going to be complaining about that later). Ive got no school work to do, nothing to study for, no where to drive. Its like.....I dunno. Its probabl why im anticipating going to school so much, just because I really need something to do, particularly something I might enjoy. I REALLY need some social interaction, but as I said above, every ones working.

Let me take a moment to say something about that btw.

Were all young kids, still in our teens, in or out of highschool, yet we are torturing our selves with part time jobs just to make a little cash. Instead of enjoying life with our friends, we assume that happiness comes in money, when really, it comes from spending time with our friends and even family (if your family isnt a bunch of a-holes). You know how many people complain to me about their part time jobs? Everyone. Raitlen is the only one who doesnt complain because she works full-time, which according to her is better than part-time jobs. But working at such a young age is silly to me. We should be enjoying our lives. Like they say, youve got one life to live, make the most of it. Dont use it just to make money in hopes of finding happiness in small strips of smelly green paper. We need money for gas, for food, and other things we want to buy, but none of those will ever bring us true happiness. Ever. You can say it does, but true happiness comes from love. No not the luvy duby love in romance novels or movies, REAL love. </rant>

Man im feeling lazy right now. Even while I type. I dont want to type. But if I dont, than ill just sit there and think about all the things I have to do but wont. Cant wait for school. Im ready to stop being lazy....but its easier to say than do. *sighs deeply* I hate myself.

Anyway....I shouldnt ramble for so long.

Happy new year everyone. Lets make 2007 a year of improvements kay? Haha...

Im kinda bored....but at the same time, I dont feel like doing anything. o_o

Ive been trying to draw more, but what I really want to do is take a human figure drawing class, but I dont have that next quarter. My human anat sucks, and I need help with it.

Oh yeah, the opening song for Paradise Kiss ROCKS. I need to find the mp3 somewhere...limewire!!! 8D Its a pretty good anime too. I need to watch more! (thanks god for youtube huh?).

I finally got a stickin Wii. Its pretty nifty, considering we can get online with it an get weather reports n stuff. Im thinkin bout buyng one of those Wii points cards and buying an old game or two. Theirs not really that great of a selection, but I havnt played the NES version of super mario in years, so I might get that for fun.

Its funny, because I went to target today, I wasnt even thinking about buying the Wii, I was just bored, and their it was. One box left. I didnt have the money...buuuut, my Dad did! I asked them if they could hold onto it for a brief secound and theyre like "uuh I guess" Like wtf? So I called my dad, he was over in about 15 minutes, and we bought it. One target worker looked really pissed about me asking to hold it. LIKE WTF? I dont care if your having a stressful day, you better show some respect! He even rolled his eyes at a customer who was asking if they could exchange a doll they bought for one of a different ethnicity. I was like, woah. The customers didnt see it, but I did. Before I left, I heard him say "this is the last time I work in the toys and electronics center". Tuff luck buddy. Dont like, dont work in sales retail. Thats all I gotta say. I dont, and I NEVER WILL. EVER. NO FUCKING WAY. I dont care if im a bum on the street, I aint working in no sales retail shyt. Thats too much stress for one college student.

Anyway, I could go play Wii now, but all ive got for it is that sports game which isnt all too exciting. Im waiting for the mario galaxy game, which looks like loads of fun. Im also going to get an SD card (my camera uses an XD card. FTW?) for the photo channel.

Oh, if anyone wants to exchane Wii numbers just post em and ill give mine too.

I want to highlight my hair. I cant decide between red or blue. Blue is my fav color, but I think red would look best on my hair...I cant decide! Maybe I can do red now, and blue later? But one things for sure, im getting my hair highlighted sooner or later! GRRR! Must highlight, now!

Havnt been online alot lately, so I havnt been keeping updated with myself all too much in any online communities ive joined. I dunno, just havnt been all that interested in the internet lately actually. And now that I managed to buy the new zelda game ive been hooked on that thing.

I bought it yesterday after calling like 10 different stores. An gamestop in clearwater had it and I rushed over to get it. The guy goes to me "are you the one on the phone?" I go, yeah, I just called about it. He turns around, grabs the game from behind him and says "its the last one, I was saving it for you" Lol. I was like, aww, I feel so special XD But man, I was really surprised as to how fast that game sold out. I was thinking "oh everyone got it for the Wii, so ill be one of the only losers buying it for the gamecube...wrong....I was one of the last ones to manage to get it O_O; Yikes. But hey, atleast I have something right? Im using as something to hold me over till the colored versions of the Nintendo Wiis and the sopposed price drop come out sometimes next year. The only problem is, ive been playing this game non-stop, even while im eating I play it D: Yesterday, I beat 2 temples... 2 temples in one day, damn im obsessed... im not using the guide either (I HATE WALKTHROUGHS!). Today im sopposed to go to the bottom of lake hylia for the water temple, but when I decided to check a walkthrough to see how far ive gotten, i realised im beating the game way to quickly... so im just going to run around hyrule and eat shyt, maybe play some minigames or something. I dunno, maybe im saying this too early, but the game really seems...short... Its like, the LOZ fans waited all this time only to find a game that may take us 3-4 days to beat if we went non-stop like ive been going so far (sunshine? Whats that?). Love the graphics though, Its beautiful. plus I love how it brings back good memories from playing the other LOZ games in my childhood. I just hope they make another one soon and make it long and difficult. Gah...I feel like going to play it again. Im obsessing over it way too much right now X_x

Well, this christmas eve and day im -sopposedly- going to miami, so im not going to be internet obsessed that much. Atleast maybe untill I finish LOZ....which i dont want to do so quickly :/ Im excited about going there, but the fact that its only 2 days makes me angry. Its like, a 4 hour drive both ways only for 2 days?! AND with two crazy dogs in the car?! Ugh... I hate these long car trips because im one paranoid freak and im always worried about us getting into an car accident (my dad is a speeder). *sighs*

Well, I guess ill go browse to net some more to hopefully get my mind off zelda...

Yesh yesh yesh! Lerch calls me yesterdat while I was at ash's house, and tells me, I PASS THE CLASS! WOOT! THANK YOU LERCH *tears of joy* What a big sigh of relief now that I know that I not only dont have to retake the class, but I also wont have to worry bout my record looking bad. *phew* Ah. As long as I keep up with the work, I think me and college are going to get along....except math. Math iim pretty darn sure im not going to be able to do. BUT, aside from math, college should be pretty nice from now on :) Okay okay, i know once I start takin my studio classes that im going to have to go through some tough shyt, but atleast it will be good for me... XD

Anyway, TODAYS I GOTS MY NEW GLASSES 8D YAYS NESS. Im not posting any photos here, maybe at DA I will (already did at myspace). But I really like them. Its nice freash new look for me.

Well, times short. Im going to get off the computer now. I should do some stuff...

Well, yesterday, I woke up super early to take my exam. I was so freakin tired, I dont normally wake up that early :S Im tired today too, and I noticed that im having way too much trouble fall asleep. Not that alot is on my mind, I just...dont fall asleep quickly. It takes me up to an hour or MORE. Well, I hope I passed the class, im just going to have to wait and see :/ Oh the anxiety and worry..

Anyway, today I went to try in some contacts...ugh, they HURT HURT HURT. My docs going to order some new ones because she said they gave her the wrong axis or something like that. I also got new glasses. I dont get them till like.... next week. I so love them, I cant wait to try them on. They are those plastic emo style glasses, and theyre balck and pink! Theyre so darn cute! I just want them so bad right now X3 I hope they look good on me though...

Well, im going to go obsess over animal crossing now. I feel fat....

Well, today, I managed to get an 85 on one test and an 95 on the other!! WOOHHHH!!!! WOW............95....thats a first....I swear...

I was about to take my final when my teacher told me he wouldnt have enough time since he has to teach a class at ITT tech at 6 or something. So, I have to be there at 11:30....am...tomorrow...to take it. The amount of caffeine intake today is crazy. A cup of coffee....a cup of coke...and now im eating chocolate. Im on edge again. Ugh... Im SO stickin nervous, because, what if I get a low grade on the test D: As long as there is no simplifying of big numbers ill be fine.....but there is....as friends have told me. UGH. The horror of it all. THE HORROR. I really hope im ready for this tomorrow, my friend has offered to come and cheer me on, I hope she is there, that would be awsome, but I dont want to make her waste her gas like im going to freakin have to. UGH GAAAASSSSS.......

BUT, next quarter I have 4 classes two days a week, aaaaaand...NO MATH! 8D One english class, but english is a sinch for me. I went through honors english in highschool, so I SHOULD be able to handle college english. I hope O_O I absolutely SUCK at those projects that require note cards and a source page, forget what they call em. But I HATE those. I also hate reading retarded books. Im not a Novel person AT ALL, the only book I enjoyed was Raptor Red, and I forever will untill the end of time (maybe I can animate it one day?).

Well, ill end it here. Gotta study and rest. REST YES.... I NEED REST...... maybe ill play animal crossing for a bit too.

OMG OMG OMG

My teacher has allowed me to come an hour early tomorrow so he could tutor me before I take the tests. Im SO stupid, I should have gotten tutoring a long time ago but im too stickin stubborn.

WISH ME FREAKIN LUCK I NEED IT. I SOOOOO tottally dont want to be in developmental math again, but really the biggest thing, is the way it will make my record look, having a class that I flunked. I would have dropped it, but I was confident I could pass...untill I found out that I need atleast a C to pass, not a D. :| Oh the cruelty. Anyway, I should go and play Yoshi Island DS and Animal corssing WW for a while. I need some money to buy more christmas gifts for people. Either that or im going to have to resort to drawing them...I know im an un baptized witness, but I still like to buy people presents since its fun :3

CIAO

THAT IS THE QUESTION

I always have some type of choosing dillema. Probably because I have problems making up my damm mind.

I really need a job though. I need money! But the only problem is, will I be able to hold a job and go to college at the same time. Probably not. Of course, college is more important than part-time jobs, but I still need the money for myself! I hate haviing to rely on my parents for money. It really really sucks. I still do need to talk to the career specialist about this, but even though, its not about finding a job. Its more about, can I do it while going to college? I probably wont know till I find out, but most likey, its going to be tough. Ugh. Fucking money. WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SO DAMNED EXPENSIVE! I need copic markers real badly right now, and theyre 5 bucks each. GAH. Where am I going to get that kind of money! >:( Geez. And on top of that, I have practically failed my DEVELOPMENTAL fucking math class. I dunno, Lerch is a nice teacher, but hes too fucking tough on us, and this is developmental math. We all suck at math. DUH. I almost CRIED today in class because I just couldnt do anything on the test. Whats really fucked up is that the teacher doesnt review before the tests, and we have one every single class. Basically, our grades are based on the tests and nothing else. I would rather do home work than have a test every single class and fail every single fucking test. I havnt failed YET, im just on the verge though. According to the teacher, I need to pull 90s on the two make up tests I need to do, and on the final exam. Thats down right impossible, so basically, I FAIL. :| Unless my friend can help me study because she bought the math book and I didnt (whaat? I dont have money remember!). Ugh. Suffering. Suffering. I really dont know how im going to get passed any math class in this school, when I got passed all my math classes with Ds, and thats after retaking all them. I so suck at math. Its been YEARS and I still cant remember any of that shyt. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUFKCKFBFBHFBKJB.

ANYWAY....well, their is good news. ITS THURSDAY YAYAAYAYAYYYY. Which means, no school for the next 3 days! YAYAYAYAYAYYYY! Next week is the last week of the quarter. I hate myself. HATE HATE HATE.... Damn stupid energy gum. Yeah, a friend gave me an energy gum, and ya know what we did afterwerds? We played tennis like a bunch of idiots and ran around screaming. Lol. I did draw two things today. Now if only I had some FUCKING COPIC MARKERS than I could color them, but NOOOOO the damn things have to be 5 bucks EACH. *KILLS EVERYONE*

Im oooookay.

If I could pull 90s on the next tests in math I swear I would be so happy I wouldnt care if I fell of a bridge into a pit of venomous snakes with no way out. Okay....maybe I would a little, but atleast I pass the class. *sigh* Right now, the only things depressing me are math and money. Both are things I feel I could live without, if it werent for fucking society.

Done.

Dunno bout the title im weird

But, im almost ready to put my website online!! :D The only problem.... the AI web hosting doesnt seem to be working atm. Thats so great that they host our websites though. Now I dont need to pay for one ^^; Heh.

I think im getting better at drawing, heck yes. Ill end it at that. BAINESS.

Whatever.

I feel better...

I now love asprin.